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Dreams are typically strange. Sometimes they will present us with familiar situations while at others we may be in unfamiliar places and circumstances that remind us of something from our past. Are these seemingly familiar people, places, and circumstances actually real or has our subconscious mind created them?
How honest are our dreams? Perhaps they are completely fabricated stories based on vague notions. Or at other times they might be revised dream versions of what we've actually experienced at some time in our past.
Here is a case study of a dream that I've had:
I am going to downtown "L.A." to audition for a film or TV role. My second wife (S), our kids, and our high-school age girl babysitter is with us. We go to a big building. I am confused where to go, but remember coming here once before for another audition.
There are many people, most of whom seem to be here to audition. I'm not sure where to go. While S. goes to the bathroom there is a call for everyone to go somewhere but I'm not sure where we were told to go. When S. returns we go to where I think we went last year. In the dream I realize that S. and I are no longer married or speaking.
We are directed to a car that will take us to the audition. I get in the front where two hispanic kids are sitting practically on the driver's lap. We are dropped off at another location. I find a place with people and tables, but no indications what we are supposed to do. I wander around and finally we are in a chaotic place where auditions seem to be happening. There is a wide variety of strange people.
At one point a pudgy quirky looking guy sitting up on a ledge becomes belligerent when I think he has been told to leave. He begins talking about "cake". I realize he is doing a comic monologue and is doing a good job at it. In the end it appears he has the job.
They start dismissing groups. I stay kind of hidden in hopes I will be missed and allowed to stay. I see S. dancing with another group. She looks awkward.
Finally I'm told to leave. I see it's raining hard outside. I worry about my kids.
I leave, but then decide to return. As I walk back I begin singing a very good and unique rendition of "Hotel California". I am convinced that I should get a part.
There are many aspects of this dream that are clearly based on my past experiences. Though S. and I never went to any auditions, we worked in theatrical productions for many years. S. had often danced in these productions though she was an awkward looking dancer. The baby-sitter was a real character who had filled this role when my children were younger. I often fantasize about being a singer and feel that I have a decent singing voice.
I'm not sure what this dream is telling me about my ambitions or about my previous marriage. I woke from the dream with a certain feeling of melancholy about that marriage, but a sense of positivity and optimism about the future.
Do you dream about a past that is not exactly like it was? Are you more talented in your dreams than you think of yourself in waking life? Have people from your past unexpectedly appeared in your dreams even though you haven't seen or thought of them for years?