Thursday, May 16, 2013

I Dreamed of a Macaque

Placid Celebes macaque
Placid Celebes macaque (Photo credit: Wikipedia)
 
     Recently I've had a series of dreams that seem to be radically different in content, but somehow related. I may be fabricating the relationship of these dreams, but each of the dreams has lead me to think about the same aspect of my life and connected my dream to a previous one.   My suspicion about the fabrication may be directly linked to an upcoming event about which I am extremely apprehensive.  My discomfiture about this event could be the cause of the dreams or because the dreams created a sense of discomfort for me I may be relating the dream scenarios to the real event that I am anticipating.

       The dream that I consider to be the first of the series is mostly forgotten since I did not focus upon it after I woke up.   The dream had to do with a house in a foreign place.   My wife and I had seemingly taken possession of the house from my wife's former sister-in-law or perhaps we were just visiting there.  The dream setting had an uncomfortable odd feel to me and I was anxious to forget it.

       The following night I dreamed that I was travelling somewhere in the Chicago area.  I have stopped at a service station with a convenience store and a McDonald's restaurant.  The establishment is old and in somewhat of a disarray.  An old friend of mine is there--perhaps as an employee.  I get some french fries and  a drink in a clear cup from the restaurant and am talking to my friend when I notice a macaque sitting in my van.  I'm not sure why there is a macaque or why I would have even dream-thought this animal since I am not very familiar with these monkeys.

       At some point I am distracted by something and the macaque grabs my french fries and drink. I see the creature casually eating the fries and downing the drink.  I am mildly annoyed but fascinated at the same time.  Upon a closer look I see that the drink has some sort of particles floating in it and realize the drink was not very clean.  I feel relieved that the macaque has stolen my drink.

      The day following that dream my wife gave me some news about an event that will be happening in the near future.  I felt uncomfortable about the news and was not happy about it.  However, I felt like I need to support her decision and be part of something I don't want to do.  I remembered the house dream and the macaque dream and realized that there seems to be a significant relationship between the dreams and the news  that my wife has delivered to me.  I am torn and distraught.

        That night I had a third dream.  I am in a peculiar wooded mountainous area.  Is it Pennsylvania?  It seems to be somewhat touristy with rustic cabins and scenic roads.  I go to a campground where I meet up with some old friends.  Eventually we are walking along a road that is going to a town.   There seems to be a foreign invasion underway or a war perhaps.  We are being shot at.   After we get to the town I encounter an enemy soldier.  I manage to wrest his pistol from him and knock him to the ground.  I begin beating him under his chin with the pistol.  I beat him and beat him until his head comes off.  I am disgusted at what I have done.  I look up and beyond the edge of town to see a road that disappears into a vast unpopulated area that is very inviting to me.

         I woke up not afraid, but somewhat horrified at my final actions in the dream.  I am resolved to tell my wife that I don't want to do what she wants to do.  As the day wore on I realized that it would be best to go along with what my wife wants to do.  That night I gave her the news.  She seemed very pleased.   I kept thinking about that macaque.

         Have you ever had a series of ongoing dreams that seemed very different but somehow connected?   Do you sometimes have difficult life decisions that cause you to have bad dreams?   From the clues in my dreams, what do you think my wife wants to do that I'm not excited about doing?


       
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Thursday, May 9, 2013

Sleepless May Not Necessarily Mean Dreamless

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think (Photo credit: the|G|™)
       You've undoubtedly had those nights when you've tossed and turned and gotten in and out of bed desperately wanting sleep, but unable to attain that much needed level of restful bliss.   There can be many causes for this.

         Typically, abnormal times of fitful sleep are the result of stress and worry.   At a time when rest might be most important, troubled sleep is the reflection of what our day has been like.  We carry the worry and concern to bed with us and mull it over in our brains which leads to mental stimulation rather than relaxation.  The more we think about our problems, the more frazzled we become.   Eventually we may succumb to exhaustion and fade in and out of the sleepy state.

         For me there have been some recent occurrences that have caused these kinds of nights.  Often I will fall asleep for the first half hour or so after I've gone to bed.  Then I will awaken wide-eyed as though reminded of what had been bothering me earlier.  After that sleep may become elusive for hours.   I may get out of bed at times and go on the computer, watch television, read, or play solitaire.   Sometimes my diversion works and I can return to sleep.  Still the rest so needed for the night has been disturbed and I usually can feel the negative effect the following day.

        The primary things that can cause sleep disturbance for me are:

  • Worry about some unresolved problem or situation.
  • Anger or some sort of conflict concerning another person.
  • Fear of some vague circumstance over which I have little control.
  • Thinking about the past, present, or future.
  • Hunger
  • Physical pain or discomfort
  • Illness
  • External influences such as loud noises outside or the occasional earthquake.
        There are fixes for a few of these, such as getting a snack to assuage my hunger or taking a medication if something is available.  The others are mostly mental aberrations that are tough to shake.  Getting diverted might be a temporary fix,  but usually once I think I'll be able to go back to sleep, the intrusive bothers reenter my mind after I've gotten back into bed.   

           The thing I have noticed is that if I do sleep or half-sleep and have dreams, those dreams will be equally troubled and related in some way to what has been keeping me awake.  Drifting between worry filled wakefulness and worry fraught sleep is disconcerting.  Not getting proper rest with healthy dreams is tough on the mind and body.  Fortunately it's not something I deal with on a nightly basis, but I wish it never had to happen at all.

          What usually causes troubled sleep for you?   Do you use any sleep aids?    What do you do when you can't sleep?



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Thursday, May 2, 2013

A to Z Challenge Reflections: It Wasn't a Nightmare!


          From the beginning of the year I was planning on having all four of my blogs in the 2013 A to Z Challenge, but then the year started with a vengeance...

         Some bouts of odd health issues and other funky distractions were big setbacks starting from the first day of this year.  Add to that some computer problems that totally sidetracked me at times and I had the perfect storm of troubles to start me off of the wrong foot in April.  My plans of having all of my posts prescheduled had not been realized and I was heading into April with nearly no content prepared.  I had topics outlined, but that was it.

          Toward the end of March I strongly considered withdrawing my dream blog and my memoir blog Wrote By Rote, but then decided that I'd try to keep them in and drop out if I couldn't keep up.  I had solved my computer problems in the week before the Challenge was to begin, but no posts had been yet composed and I was feeling rather down about it all.  I fully expected for this blog to be out of the running fairly soon into the Challenge.

          Once I got started writing my posts I got into the swing of things.  Keeping posts short and simple I was able to push out daily content.  I usually kept ahead by about two days and that helped.  Where I fell short was in my comments.  My apologies for not making it around to as many blogs as I would have liked to have done.  My new follower additions and low volume of comments certainly reflected my failure from the standpoint of networking.

         The bottom line is that preparing ahead makes a big difference in the networking one can do.  The advance preparation is imperative if one is attempting multiple blogs.  The Challenge can be met without the preparation, but the networking will take a big hit.

        I'm not sure about next year.  If I can prepare each blog months in advance then maybe entering four blogs will be okay.  I don't think I would do another day by day on multiple blogs.  After all, in my view the A to Z Challenge is mostly a networking feat.  That's how it all began.  The content is always important if ones blog is to be taken seriously, but if you're not making the rounds to connect with new bloggers the true Challenge is not met.   At least that's the Challenge for me.  Just achieving the content is fine, but if no one is reading then there's not as much point in producing that content.

        A note about my theme:  In April I did an A to Z dream interpretation/symbolization study.  Since in my opinion dream symbols are not totally universal I presented my symbols in regard to what they mean to me and might mean to readers as well.  I closed with questions to allow readers to relate their own thoughts and experiences.  We got some interesting insights from your comments.  A big thank you to the few of you who regularly stopped by to leave a comment.

         The A to Z may be over, but I'll keep dreaming cause the dreams aren't over.  Please continue to visit A Faraway View.  This blog publishes every Thursday.


  ****   My thanks to Thelmaz at WindowSphere: A Circle of Hope for recognizing A Faraway View as one her 26 favorite blogs during the 2013 A to Z Challenge.

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Tuesday, April 30, 2013

Zoo ( #atozchallenge )

A black bear in the Great Smoky Mountains, in ...
A black bear in the Great Smoky Mountains, in the U.S. state of Tennessee. (Photo credit: Wikipedia)
 
        Well, this is strange.   At the beginning of the Challenge I scheduled my letters and used 'zoo' for 'z'.  I have not had many dreams about zoos, but it was the 'z' word I could think of since I don't recall ever having a zombie dream.  Then, on Sunday morning April 28th, I had a truly epic zoo dream

         I can't say that my scheduled topic had anything to do with my having this dream.  I suppose it probably did, but it came all too easily.  In this post I will recount that dream:

        I am in a park-like area that I know to be a zoo, but it does not look like any zoo I've ever seen before.  At first I don't see any enclosures, but I do begin to start seeing a few animals that seem to be roaming free.  As I begin to look around I do see a few enclosures with animals in them, but over all my reaction is that this is a zoo with very few animals.
         Then I find myself on a scenic loop road. At times I seem to be in a vehicle, but mostly I seem to be on foot.  The place seems like a natural habitat wild-life park, but I sense that I am on the Cades Cove Loop Road in the Great Smoky Mountains in Tennessee.   I see various animals now and then.  They mostly seem to be roaming free.
          At some point I find myself at an area where there are refreshment stands.   There is a stage in a theater and I see Dolly Parton there.  I don't recall what she is doing.  Then I am in some sort of building or enclosed area where there are many men.  I realize they are prisoners.  I also come to the realization that I am a prisoner here.
          The zoo and the prison all seem to be one with animals roaming freely and very tough looking prisoners mingling about.  I feel somewhat scared feeling as though I may be in danger in this place.  As the dream progresses I find myself blending in with the prisoners and making friends.  At some point it is meal time and we are taken aboard a bus or tram to a food court type of place that is in the midst of the zoo.  We go to eat.   I revel in the realization that this prison is not such a bad place and it's just part of the zoo.

          Okay, that was a strange dream.  There was much more to it that I can't remember.  The amazing thing is that I started dreaming not long after I had fallen asleep on Saturday night.  I woke up about five times to go to the bathroom and each time I returned to bed the same dream would continue.  I guess I was very intent to dream about a zoo!

          Anyone want to venture an interpretation on this dream?   Have you ever dreamed about a zoo?   Have you dreamed about prison or being incarcerated?  

       My A to Z Reflections Post for A Faraway View will be posted this coming Thursday May 2nd.   The Linky List for the Reflections Posts will be available on Friday May 3rd at most A to Z Co-host blogs (Thursday Night on some blogs).   Be sure to do your own Reflections Post and add the link for that post to the official list.  We want to hear about your experience with A to Z and any ideas you might have for the future.   For more info please visit Blogging from A to Z Challenge Blog

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Monday, April 29, 2013

Younger days ( #atozchallenge )

Science Project 1974
Science Project 1974 (Photo credit: The Rocketeer)
     
          My own childhood is rarely a factor in my dreams, but every once in a while I will find myself back in high school or college.  I assume that I am of that age in the dreams.  My old friends who appear in these dreams appear as their younger selves.

          These dreams seem natural and appropriate.  Since in my younger self I am essentially of adult or near adult age, I feel of the same mindset of my current age.  At times the experience may be one of those cases of being younger but knowing everything that I know now.  I do almost always feel far more confident in those dreams that I might have felt when I was actually that age.

          Most of the time the dreams in these age settings take place in school or a school related scenario.  In some cases I come across as the hero of the dream or a person of notable influence.  Even in dreams where there may be an aura of something bad threatening my circumstance, I seem to almost always come up with a solution or deflect whatever threat might be present.

          The dreams are almost always positive and have a comfortable feeling to them.  After most of these dreams I awaken feeling confident, but perhaps with a wistful longing for my younger days.

          My interpretation is that these dreams are memory filters.   My mind is revisiting past times to reevaluate and perhaps even make things right for my memory of those days.  The dreams may be a reassurance to me that I currently am in control of most things in my life and I know how to find the solutions to any problems I might be having.

          Do you dream of younger days?   What are the most common things in your past that you dream about?   Do you wish you could go back in real life to visit times in your past?




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